Skyward Resentment

I'm so sorry Amy. I wish there was something I could do to make the pain dissipate, but it's something that will take time and healing. I know that you loved him, and he loved you, but it's in the Lord's hands now. Oh, Amy... I'm so sorry...

I've felt an expansive breadth of emotions today. From disgust, anger and resentment to sorrow, remorse and guilt. Todd wasn't meant to leave us so soon. It was an accident.

He was loved and cherished by so many people. Everyone who knew Todd either loved him or adored him, and they all knew that Amy was the apple of his eye. We all have to keep living for Todd. I know that I will miss the fact that I will never again scream at the top of my lungs the distinctive shout that catches his attention. It's a bellow that Lauren and I devised. But never again will we call upon him with it. There will be no more mid-day beers at the Chicken, just catching up on the past year, and talking about our future.

"We'll have to do this again some time," I said.

"You're damn right we do," said Todd.